I can't see what others say. I just truly can't. I would like to just pick up and go somewhere else. Start fresh. Where people don't have a pre-judgement about me. I feel I can't be me. I feel people look at me and talk about me when I turn my back. Talking about my failures, my actions and how they are wrong, about how I dress, that I always have no money. That I look unkempt and destitute. I still fight, yet I can't see why.
Each day I wake up, I wish I hadn't. I think about what things ahead of me are like and it does not make me feel better.